Watching someone start a relationship and then ending it while still being single throughout the period made me feel like a rock, the kind they show in time-lapse videos, perfectly still in the center of the frame while the clouds speed past above it.

Today I spent almost the entire evening and night in various forms of stillness, wishing time to go away, like it was some kind of nuisance, a hindrance.

And right now I am wondering whether this is what gave birth to the post you are now reading or whether the post was there all along and what I’ve been feeling was merely the harbinger.