What I am saying

Some words I’m too scared to write down.

It’s this feeling that there will come a point when things are really bad and at that moment they will pick up the chain that joins us and they will start to pull and pull until I will be powerless to resist reading them again and I don’t know if I would be able to live through that.

So I’m not going to write them down.

I guess they win then.

This night is hard.

Is what I am saying.